Khakpour’s post-collegiate life brought with it a series of difficult, sometimes-abusive relationships, graduate school at Johns Hopkins, psychotropic drugs to control anxiety, insomnia, and mood disorders, severe health problems initially diagnosed as autoimmune disorders, and “a seesaw of struggling to survive in New York and then running home to LA and then escaping back to New York.” Her life stabilized for a short time after she accepted a temporary position at Bucknell University. In addition to her experimentation with drugs, the author endured harrowing experiences with sexual assault and depression. In college, Khakpour, who had long been fascinated by the “altered states” that drugs could produce, began a “casual relationship” with cocaine and cultivated the “heroin chic” look fashionable during the 1990s. As she grew into adolescence, she writes, “everything about my body felt wrong,” and her feelings of dysmorphia remained one of the constants in an often chaotic life. A child of the Iranian Revolution, her earliest memories were of “pure anxiety.” She survived the trauma of living in a war zone and moved from Tehran to Los Angeles. Physical and mental pain had always defined Khakpour’s ( The Last Illusion, 2014, etc.) life. A distinguished Iranian-born writer and creative writing professor’s memoir of her struggle with trauma, drug addiction, mental illness, and late-stage Lyme disease.

Sick by Porochista Khakpour